The doctor said “we know what it is and it’s thanks to your badger”
I repaid the badger by carrying on the fight for fans of peculiar rock – songs that make you laugh nervously whilst rocking your head.
A few years ago I took part in a psychology experiment at Univeristy of Cardiff. For a day I gave them an object I had a sentimental attachment to- so I gave them my favourite badger. They then put me in an MRI scanner and showed me videos of my badger being destroyed in various ways making me press buttons on how I felt about it. When it was over I was mystified as to the purpose of this project but I had only taken part due to an instinct that told me I needed the scans of my brain. For free. Doctors don’t refer you based on your feeling about something. Sometimes you just need to find a way and an opportunity can land in your lap if you’re tuned in.
A week or so later I had a seizure for the first time. I had already prepared my own brain scans. I shat myself quietly. Mainly because I knew I was right . The badger was springing the trap. They knew what caused the seizure and they knew ultra fast because of immediate scans.
And then well I thought about surgery and the fact that maybe I wouldn’t be able to play music ever again. How would I feel then? I love my family but I also love my music like I can’t breathe without it.
Anyhow I made it. They etched a stencil on my brain and what was bad was gone.
The euphoria post surgery turned into a number of songs even madder than I could previously imagine. A few years on I suddenly have a young family and that has provided a huge amount of inspiration for songs. Mainly about the comical side to all the frustrations that come with children invading and disrupting my life. So I made a record that is driven by a sort of pre mid -life crisis- however I enjoy such wildly swinging emotions. My purpose in life is to write and play and save people like my badger has saved me.
I received a lot of support from friends, family and fans over the years and we share pains. We laugh together as the words spill out of my mouth. Rebellious as ever.
And badgertrap’s latest adventures in lo-fi are captured in this collection: Man Shed Head Crisis.
I’d be interested in what you think. You know best.